Why do we make God, who is so much bigger than we could ever think or imagine, so small? I was talking to some friends a while back about the need to find a place to live closer to work. I was really down about not finding exactly what I wanted, in the area and time frame I wanted it. My friend stopped me in the midst of my 'woe is me' and asked me how big God is. I was taken back a little with the question. I mean, here I was trying to find a solution to the problem and she wants to know how big God is.
My reply, “well, He’s big, infinite, all powerful, all knowing, ever present and everything.” Her reply to me was, "then why do you keep making Him so small? You are talking like He can’t handle your simple request for a place to live. Let Him do what He will. Pray big because His is big. Pray believing He can and will work things to His glory.”
Ouch. The truth hurts, doesn't it? The phrase "His glory" stuck with me for a time. I realized that I was not actually praying and asking God for His help, but making demands of what I wanted, when, where, and how I wanted it. I never really asked what God wanted. On top of that, I didn't wait for an answer of any kind, but instead tried to make everything happen in my own strength. I was frustrated because I couldn't make things happen. I had made God so small that I didn't think the task possible for Him either.
I definitely spent some time in prayer asking the Lord's forgiveness for making the entire ordeal all about me and what I wanted. I also had to spend a lot of time getting my size issue back in perspective. God is huge and power and deserves my respect and devotion. I'm the small fry here, not God. Turns out, once I took ‘me’ out of the picture and started praying for God's will and direction that He had a totally different plan for me. I don't have all the details, but I know I'm to stay put and wait for His answer and not mine.